community is something that i did not have for a long time. it was in reach, but i did not reach for it. out of fear of rejection and also slightly out of fear of normalness. though in most ways, being part of community usually makes you much less normal. chrysanthemum talks about parasocial relationships. my relationship to community is mostly parasocial, i think.

when visiting one of heuchera’s friends, i discovered a very vivid community. chrysanthemum called it a “cabal”. the apartment is furnished with a large dog bed that is suspiciously free of fur.

i decided that i like community.